The Most Powerful Choice in Each Moment:

I don't believe in regrets I believe in making the next moment that much better with the tool I gained from the experience. Life is crazy and at 46 years old had no idea what journey I was going on four years ago, the roller coaster I created that turned into a hamster wheel and somehow found a way to spin myself out of it.

Deepak Chopra in a morning meditation once said, we have a powerful choice in each moment the choice between miracles and grievances. That is one of the most beautiful things I have ever heard and if you need to read it again. 

I have had a trying last 4 years but hearing that and actualizing it has made my life 1000x better. 

The biggest lessons I have learned are, trust no one but your dog, and your intuition. Never take handouts because what you will pay in waiting for programs for victims assistance, government program etc wont be worth what you get for the time you spent and you could have been working on something fruitful. Keep a schedule as much as possible, track your emotions, feelings and even physical state, don't miss doctors appointments or dental visits. Learn to be in nature and seek it out. Read more, listen to more music, and relish in each moment even when you are alone. 

I also learned to support people on their journey and to give, just simply give what someone needed, a listening ear, a morning having coffee, a hike or to be there to help them at a critical time. If you give with honest expectations and understand the gift you recieve in giving its a mutually amazing experience. That is called synergy, and it is what we all crave, to have a synergistic experience with another, but you can create that with your pets, the deer that wander into your yard, even a feral cat you see often that comes into your presence for a reason. Relationships with living beings even your houseplants should be intentional, amazing and reciprocal. Nourish and be nourished. Love and be loved. Touch and be touched. Dont wait for someone to extend something to you, be willing to take a risk and be okay with being denied. Not everyone is for us and we are not for everyone, remember what people think about you is none of your business, so just extend without attachment and your life will open up greatly.  

I have found a new way of healing myself and others in psychic or intuitive work and would love for you to look me up here. I have learned to appreciate what I have and to find beauty everywhere. I have learned my deep love of history and architecture, my thirst for art all art, and making art, photography, watercolor, wreaths, garland and even writing a book. I have realized what your given only means anything when you do something amazing with it. Yes having an alcoholic father and narcissistic mother was a gift. It gave me tools other people dont have. I started being softer in my speech, tone and overall appearance. I have learned to listen more and find truth in faces not words. 

I have also learned that life is truly what you make it. 

                                                            

I will share a story and the whole story can be found on my podcast. Its about my neighbor. An older man, he owns a porch boxster (above), has a dog, seems pretty average. He has lived in the same apartment for 10 years, in this new neighborhood I moved to. In getting into conversation with him he told me he spent 35 years homeless on the streets of Boulder Colorado, a drug addict and no direction in life. 

He now for 13 years has had a job, and right now as he was selling solar but with new tax credits stopped making money is working in the lawn and leaf department of Walmart. He is an older man, is on social security and I have never seen him have anyone to his place. He goes to work, comes home and I hear his tv when I walk to my door on Sundays when football is on. 

He doesn't know it, but he is my hero, he breathed amazing life into me telling me that story and I want to have him on my podcast so we can all here his story together.  Being neighbors with him makes me feel understood and helps me know not all people are as they seem. I cannot imagine the stories and life he has had, but he found a way out of the hamster wheel, and no one not one person did that but him. 

If you are a person struggling with something that has a hold on your life, relationships or having a home, know that in the next moment you can choose between miracles and grievances and you can choose the light and then the next moment you can choose again, and again in the next. 

After one day of choosing miracles it gets easier, your mind starts to change and you stop being the narcissist that has only chosen your vice instead of the miracles in each moment. Being addicted to anything is being selfish, taking too much will leave you in a pattern of self hate and making excuses for your habit. It can be a shopping habit. a porn habit, a religion habit that has you thinking and making choices not your own. 

Today if you feel compelled choose miracles, for a minute at least and see how it feels. And if you need support on your journey reach out to me. Find my direct information on my website and have an amazing day.